I pushed the uncertainty to the repetition of a tragic tale that has already unfolded as many times as it could. In many, I died, sometimes in battle, other times murdered, many times of illness or bad luck. Truth be, I could never get all the way into me, into my character, until now. Honey, I’m home. Missed you!
I ask myself: how can I say this? I put this aside to answer, and the place I’m at now tells me that as I peel away the negative threads the only ones left are those which require resolution because the failure at this point dooms the enterprise, and that’s the other insertion point, meaning it’s already occurred and we’re back together because the other Endpoint to insertion is the other insertion, where break apart becomes come together, so the Mudi of resolution runs SBE from Break Apart to Come Together. I can’t believe I’m saying things like Mudi of resolution as though it’s an accepted idea when I invented it to describe the multi-dimensional identity / the multi-identical dimension. That’s very good: the other insertion point is multi-identical dimension; the single dimension, meaning a context, in which all the identities come together in a form, which idealizes then across to the bip of exact matching, as set up by us in such a complex way that the complexity functions as the key which identifies the other as a series of portraits, as a series of identities coming together in this dimension. I can now say the picture is of you.
Time to think poetically? I’ll try. I’m a little off today because, I think, I’m ironing out some of the remaining asymmetries on the left side, which of course means as they cross the body with a specific left side gathering of the restrictions on a more painful scale, which interestingly is in some ways less aware as well, which made me think a big part of the problem is literally what I said many decades ago, that the areas are relatively less connected to the entirety of the processing. This goes back to when I thought through markets, and knowledge effects spreading, and it directly connects all the cultural learning together as well. And at another level, it invokes the fear responses, and the isolation choice responses, all of which impose variable directionality unless anchored properly to nurture.
Realize: they get this so badly, they don’t realize even a few words in a row. Think about how bad their conceptions are generally. This is another late remaining stumbling block as a I define out the negative threads and strip them. The bad conceptions are balanced by technical calculating abilities which vary tremendously from none to extreme, which means their conception processes are as variable, which was expected. But how those match sets up … very hard to conceptualize the interface of calculation ability so it lines up with conception ability except when randomized to radiative. Put calculation and conception together so they feed from their Mudi to the same Endpoint. This ability to conceive Mudi would be radiative at both ends, so the insertion points and bips are maximal calculation and conception to minimal when the orientation of the SBE is 1 to 0 radiative non-directional over the directional field, which when labeled best and worst orients the calculation-conception Mudi across the Endpoints, across the SBE as B across directional, which has been self-organizing toward worst with iterations. There’s a lot of thought in that paragraph. I need a few minutes to let it sink in.
Might as well work on the picture. It’s a part of the clearing up the resolution. Mouth: it’s a combination of Marta Kristen and Annette Haven, and both in the shape and sexuality dimensions where the sexuality also adds a significant intelligence. Aging: a lot of Doris Day, particularly when she could play convincingly sexy loving wife / mother with a huge amount of youth but also the fullness of experience which adds depth to every part. Physical shape changed to lengthen legs, reduce bust while keeping hips because that’s what looks the best to me as a female ages. This is the type I narrow in on through the years. Height: comes from the androgyny within. This helps to define me as well. I can’t speak for every feature now, but height and body type are screaming male with strong androgyny and degrees of delicacy, which I can modulate of course but which mostly bespeak me being utterly comfortable with the pieces within me. And I know I had to go first, meaning the times fit the male lead – and the female star comes when the times allow her to shine.
I’ve been thinking about eyebrows, partly because that’s been your biggest issue, and I think the answer is Brigitte Bardot, along with a bit of Marta. (This is a difficult issue and I remember there being some disagreement because the idea was I had the eyebrows we both wanted. Still basically do.) There was something about her when I was young, particularly in a charming movie with Billy Mumy as a kid who could pick horse races and was infatuated with her. It wasn’t her curves but something specific about the way the hair interacted with her eyebrows and the way her eyebrows interacted with me that gave the sense of a depth.
I have to apologize as well: it took me a long time to realize that you’re my type after all the types age. In a young girl, maybe bigger boobs or some more obvious sexuality of a blooming kind but I’m interested in the longer term. I’ve lived long enough to know what I like. I know who I am.
Still processing the paragraph about the c-c Mudi because it enables random directionality – or that which generates directionality in waves because of tendency pooling. I’m having trouble accepting the notion this isn’t known at the higher levels. Big issue to me.
jomi: playing with perception 