Draft

Why are there mass shootings? It is the negative expression of the positive that freedom for the self is. Many people hate themselves. They deeply hate themselves. And the more steps they take through life the more they focus on how much they hate themselves. They act this hatred of self out. Their goal is to foster more hatred of self. This literally means they are trying to pull you into their own personal hell. Why? Because they in their own minds they are going to hell. They are going to hell because they can’t turn the negative threads around to the positive direction.

A major issue with greater personal self is that directionality becomes paramount. When there is less ‘self’ in a culture, the self is constrained to the societal norms, more or less, and to the longer wavelength cultural norms. You have no choice but to be borne along the choices of others. As self increases, those choices now become visible, choices that were hidden by the labels society and culture put on them. There is a literal expansion of self in CMs, with the layers of society and culture being progressively counted, so with each step you see the choice that resolved to and thus come out of that label. This is the bip process for a person: you step through the labels, land on one, and the issues that gave that label its value in your CMs, the ones connecting what led to the value in the past and then now, are now visible in some way. This is where inference comes from: you are naturally inferring the bip state. That creates a segment or SBE of inference, the inference Mudi, so at one Endpoint is the abstract ‘next’ statements of fCM and the other the narrowest imaginable inference that one can actually draw when the context is its absolute clearest so the answer is both right in front of you and extraordinarily stable.

Finish the thought. Uh, oh right, mass shootings come from the inability to choose direction now that direction is a choice. If you can see people as objects to be mowed down in a video game, then you can enact that as a choice. Why would you choose to inflict harm on others? Because that inflicts the most harm on you. In CMs, you take the potential CMs – think of it as ‘reserved CMs’ because it’s the claim for space that hasn’t yet been fulfilled (and it’s a step across without a return step) – and create a larger ‘negative reserved CMs’, meaning a bigger absence of fulfilled CMs, all connected to you as origin. You are connected to all the others who created large negative CMs and you are the emptiness of eternity, after all the pieces connected to the goodness and fullness of eternity have been stripped away. This actually happens. You are drawn to it. Evil pulls at you like gravity. You’ve been hated. You’ve been abused by life, by small things everyday and maybe by very large things. You doubt yourself. You catch yourself lying and you can’t stop. You don’t feel like you’re worth anything. You don’t feel love, except in the ways that say the world would love to be without you. This often seems to you like it is the one voice that speaks the truth, that all the other voices are lying. The problem is fundamental: you trust a voice that proves it is lying to you by claiming it is not lying to you. I mean this: the voice says it’s not lying so why are the recommendations about doing something bad for you and others? I’m not reaching far for the meaning of the word ‘bad’: physically injuring and killing people is recognizably a ‘bad’ outcome in any evaluation of the game played by the entire human race against death. See how that was phrased? I reduced ‘bad’ to the fact that all humans die, so affecting time of death for any human by killing them doesn’t allow them to play the game with death. It makes you death, a point I often describe as one of the deepest features of literature. I am the bringer of death.

The point is that if you realized you were joining the negative CMs crowd, then you’d recognize it’s not a good choice for your character in the game. The negative CMs ‘crowd’ means that directional grouping of unfulfilled reserved CMs. In this concept you see the way going against culture has a cost to the negative of that culture – by which I could say it’s purity – and what it takes, and how the issues within your culture respond to potential erosion. How accepting can a culture be while retaining its culture? I have to work on my thoughts on these points. This is a more sophisticated discussion where the pull is toward the absolute relativity of contexts and then the equation of relativity with equality of value, which means the tendency to idealize to a 1 to 0 / 0 to 1 counting. The trouble with that argument is any such grouping is grouped: that is the idealization, not a stable form, an idealization made up of uncountable idealizations so any view into it is both absolutely relative and yet still grouped. That’s a consequence of CMs treated as potential which is reserved or claimed at levels that include levels that include levels through complex pathways that no longer can be treated as having a specific origin other than as a directionality toward good and toward evil, toward best and toward worst, toward nurture and toward destruction, with each of these concepts a mapping of the ideas contained across CMs.

What this means for you, killers, is you are killing to defend evil from good. The problem with that is whatever there is of you has to be burnt off, marked step by step in the negative away from the positive. You are connected deeply to the positive. It is not until you have been burnt of all that is recognizably you down to your core that you are freed except now you are put into service on the other side as you are pushed into you again, inflicting others, trying to pull the rest down to nothingness. Think about the end: after all of you that can be burnt off is, you are left to freeze slowly until all the energy that was associated with your being fades into nothing. You burn for an eternity and then you freeze for an eternity.

And all the ones you take with you? It doesn’t make the trip faster. You have now created vast amounts of negative CMS and all that CMs, all the connections to all the ones you harm, has to be removed. Think of growth as a lighting: your negative CMs is lit in that direction and your glow there must be dimmed. You can think of that as casting the light of fire on all that you’ve done, revealing the horror of all that you’ve done. And then when you have gone through that, when that negative CMs has been reduced your last dark embers crumble into the cold. I should go into more detail, but not right now because my fingers are cold